How i feel about us

How I feel about you, is something I don’t think I can explain.  You’ve been a part of my life since I can remember and I can’t see life without you.  You’re the sun to my shine and beginning to my ending.  Even when I try to walk away from you, something keeps pulling me back.  I’m emotionally attached to you; you’re my homie’ and my best friend.  Who else can I run to when I need love?   When I say “we’re getting married”, you may think I’m joking, but I’m serious.  I appreciate you for all the things you’ve done for me.  I value everything you say, even when it may seem I’m not listening, my ears are always open for you.  You’re my reality check when I think the world revolves around me and you’re the caring voice I need when I feel the word is against me. 

                Who’s Tay with Zay? We’re total opposites, but we go together so well. We’re two halves of a whole and without you, I wouldn’t be complete.  My love for you goes past anything physical, it so much more.  We are mentally and emotionally connected.  You know me best and you’ve been there to grow with me.  Sometimes I feel as if you know things about me that I don’t even know about myself.  You are my lover, my best friend, you are my everything.  The thought of losing what we have terrifies me because I know what we have is what a lot of people wish they had. So cheers to us and the long future we have ahead of us.  We’ve made it far past the infatuation phase, we’ve made it through arguments and all other obstacles that was put in front of us.   We have a lifetime ahead of us; it’s no stopping us now. 

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inner thoughts

As I sit here and think about my last weeks of my freshman year of college, I get sad.  This year has been filled with so many hardships, but I’ve also been rewarded greatly.  I’ve grown to appreciate Illinois State University and be proud to call it my school.  Looking back at the semesters, I wish I would’ve branched out more socially and got to know more people.  Being here really changed me because for the longest time I’ve always been a social butterfly.  But I’m still finding myself as a person, I’m still learning to realize everyone can’t be my friends. 

                My significant other and I aren’t on the best terms, but I’m still glad I have him through everything.  He’s stuck by me for almost 4 years (June 1^st 2008) and even though we argue almost every day, he’s still sticking around.  I can definitely agree with the statement that college changes you.  I feel like I’m a totally different person than I was when I started here in the fall of 2011.  I’m not sure if I changed for good or bad but I just know I’m a different Taylor Katie. 

I’m excited to get home for the summer.  I miss my friends and my family.  For the longest times it’s been me and my mom.  I miss her so much and I don’t even tell her. I have a tough exterior that I try and use, but I really miss the times we had.  She’s the only one that has been by my side since birth and she hasn’t given up on me.  I get emotional when I think about all the sacrifices she made for me; I could never pay her back.  But my plan is to show her that I understand.  Well I’ve reached 300 words so I’m out, PEACE!

-Taylor Katie

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The way I write

Research has always been hard for me.  The sources I use for my paper have to be perfect, they should reinforce my thesis at all times and in many cases they don’t work like that.  I find myself using multiple quotes just to get across one point which can be time consuming.   I research the same way for all classes, I usually go online to Jstor or Google Scholar and I’m usually successful with finding academic writing that fits my topic.   When I write it is more of a free write to a topic. I don’t like to be confined to any specific thesis or to any length.  I just want to write until I feel I get my point across or I have enough ideas that can be integrated into a regular paper.    My lack of structure when I write sets me up for long periods of time where I’m writing and not really getting anything accomplished, I really kind of just taking up space which helps out when I have longer papers to write.  However It’s almost inevitable for my paper to start of like this because this helps me get out all the ideas I want to write about out.  More than likely while I’m writing the paper, I won’t have any correct grammar or even make any since to anyone; but I’m fully aware of what’s going on.  My method of writing is messy but somehow it helps me create some of my best work.  my style of free writing at the beginning of the paper gives me a chance to get all my ideas out and after that all I have to do is add some quotes, fix my grammar and then I’ll be done.   I wouldn’t recommend this strategy for anyone because it’s not really logical and unless you have the ability to type large sums of information out at one time, it probably won’t work for most.  

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Close-Reading

I am no stranger to close reading and how they affect your interpretation of a text.  Back in high school, we were required to annotate and interact with all text that we came into contact with.  But the interesting thing that I learned about close-reading from this week, is that you have to do research on the author which can also give you a lot of information about what the text is going to be about.  For example, in the short story “the yellow wallpaper” once we found out background information on the author, we were able to better understand the text.  We were able to understand what was going on in the personal life of the author and what was going on in the world around that time.  Once we found out all this information we understood the text better and were able to connect better with the text.

            I believe that these exercises have definitely affected the way I read text: It has taught me to investigate more when reading.  I feel, I am better equipped at how to read text and respond properly.  I have been taught to look at syntax, diction and even capital letters.  All these techniques will help me understand readings better. 

Close readings are very beneficial for the reader.  You are thrown into the world of the author which helps you relate to the author better.  You are required to look at various characteristics in the text that you may not have did before.   All these tools make you more knowledgeable on the text and the author.  You’re able to better infer on what’s the underlining meaning of the text.  Being a close-reader is an important skill to have and should be used whenever coming into contact with a new text.