Thursday, April 19, 2012

inner thoughts


As I sit here and think about my last weeks of my freshman year of college, I get sad.  This year has been filled with so many hardships, but I’ve also been rewarded greatly.  I’ve grown to appreciate Illinois State University and be proud to call it my school.  Looking back at the semesters, I wish I would’ve branched out more socially and got to know more people.  Being here really changed me because for the longest time I’ve always been a social butterfly.  But I’m still finding myself as a person, I’m still learning to realize everyone can’t be my friends. 
                My significant other and I aren’t on the best terms, but I’m still glad I have him through everything.  He’s stuck by me for almost 4 years (June 1st 2008) and even though we argue almost every day, he’s still sticking around.  I can definitely agree with the statement that college changes you.  I feel like I’m a totally different person than I was when I started here in the fall of 2011.  I’m not sure if I changed for good or bad but I just know I’m a different Taylor Katie. 
I’m excited to get home for the summer.  I miss my friends and my family.  For the longest times it’s been me and my mom.  I miss her so much and I don’t even tell her. I have a tough exterior that I try and use, but I really miss the times we had.  She’s the only one that has been by my side since birth and she hasn’t given up on me.  I get emotional when I think about all the sacrifices she made for me; I could never pay her back.  But my plan is to show her that I understand.  Well I’ve reached 300 words so I’m out, PEACE!
-Taylor Katie
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1 comment:

  1. I agree that it's hard to break out and meet people even for social butterfly's at college, especially when you have a significant other. 4 years wow! And now that i'm away from my mom i've had a really close relationship to her so i understand how you are feeling.

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